LEAVE ME BE!!!

He sees the pretty face and smile; so he walks up to say "hello"

She's polite, so she says "hi".

She's hopeful... for something real

He's hopeful... for a kiss and maybe more.

It starts... the search for who gets what and the winner takes it all.

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I've had that scenario play so many times and i'm TIRED!

where are all the REAL guys? Pluto?

The good guys ARE still on planet earth... and so are the good girls; It's just that anything really good and worthwhile takes time to come to you,and after you've been through so many counterfeits,you learn to appreciate it's value. It becomes PRICELESS!

I guess what i didn't realize was that i AM getting refined in the process of waiting for the real thing.It's like raw gold going through the heat and getting the impurities burned of... you learn to leave the heavy,impure,unecessary dross in the fire and you come out with what's really important- purity and value.

That is reassuring... but i must admit,it IS hard!

When someone seemingly responsible comes along, i always hope he's the one i'm waiting for...and i find out he's not! That's disappointing... and yet i keep hoping!

It's funny. I'm blessed with this amazing ability to dream!

I really wish the fake guys would leave me be... but they won't. I guess that is part of the process to teach me to learn how to seperate the real from the phoney,to help me see a clearer,sharper picture of who i'm waiting for..because now i know who he is NOT!

So... i guess i won't give the exasperated cry "Leave me be!" ; I'll just ask for strength to go through the process.

Help me EBENEZER! You are the Stone of My Help.